LiVing wiTh cAncer!!
NO MATTER WHAT!!!!! I continue to keep a positive head on my shoulders. Like any other person, I've been THROUGH it! Im far from perfect & I have my flaws too. But after getting to know the REAL me, you will make a friend for life. One of the realest people you will ever meet. Just remember that the truth hurts sometimes. But ill be there to make you feel better.
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On my spare time during my illness i like to make music, This is my newest song.
(Source: hulkshare.com)
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So I thought I’d let you blog readers see a little of what I have to go through during this time of treatment. As I was doing some research on the medication I’m getting, a lot of things began to sink in. I was told that This medication may cause certain severe blood disorders (bone marrow suppression leading to low red blood cells/white blood cells /platelets). This can also lower your body’s ability to fight infections.
Doxil Side Effects:
Body aches/pains, headache, nausea, vomiting, constipation, diarrhea, stomach upset, and loss of appetite may occur. Nausea and vomiting can be severe. In some cases, drug therapy may be needed to prevent or relieve nausea and vomiting. Not eating before your treatment may help relieve vomiting. Changes in diet and lifestyle, such as eating several small meals and limiting activity, may help lessen some of these effectsd stop bleeding. May cause heart problems, including possibly fatal heart failure.
Treatment with this drug may sometimes cause hands/feet to develop a skin reaction called hand-foot syndrome (palmar-plantar erythrodysesthesia).
May experience swelling, pain, redness, dryness, peeling, blisters, or tingling/burning of the hands/feet. The symptoms can be made worse by heat/pressure on your hands/feet. Avoid prolonged sun exposure, tanning booths, and sunlamps, as well as unnecessary exposure to heat (e.g., hot dishwater, long hot baths). Avoid pressure on elbows, knees, and soles of feet (e.g., leaning on elbows, kneeling, long walks). I have to wear loose clothing and depending on how severe hand-foot syndrome is, the doctor may give something to reduce the symptoms, or decrease or delay next does of chemo.
Temporary hair loss may occur. Normal hair growth should return several months after treatment has ended.
YES!!!! So next time you would like to complain about your day, just think of what other people have to go trough in life. You may just not have it as bad as you thought. -
oreginally posted October 29th from blogspot.com)
FIRST OFF! thank you for those who choose to keep up with whats going on in my life these days. For those who like: KNOW ME, know me, you are aware that I keep my friends and associates to a minimum. Less friends, Less drama. I have enough of that in my life these days. Before I was diagnosed with cancer, I guess you can say I did my share of partying. I mean, my work load was extremely crazy. So I got out when ever I could. At this time in my life, I met a lot of cool people. I’m a random type of person, ready to go anywhere at anytime. So many of my “friends” would call me to hang out on spare of the moment events. I mean it could be 2a.m. and if they needed me to be there, I was there. SOOOOOOOOO ANYWAYS: After discovering my having cancer, My cousin Lisa called me and had a convo with me. Pointing out that in this moment of time, i would see who is really there for me and who isn’t. HELLOOOOO!!!!! was she ever so correct. I’m talking, people who I NEVER would have expected to NOT be there, had my back more than the people i just KNEW would be there. I felt in a way that now because I’m not an asset to them any longer, that I was just so easy to dispose of. “Oh, Eboney cant party with us anymore, no need in calling her.” “Oh, Eboney cant get drunk with us anymore, Leave her be” BLAHzayBLAH-Till this day, there are certain people that have not picked up the phone to give a simple courtesy call. But yet I have females who couldn’t STAND MY ASS back in the day, hitting me up on FB praying for me. Even strangers who don’t know me from a whole in the wall hit me up. I just find it crazy. But I’m grateful for it. Because now I know who is truly there for me and who just looked at me as “Fun party girl Eboney who was down for the ride”. I hopped off that party bus a LOOOONG time ago. THANK YOU to those who generally care.
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(Oreginally posted October 26th from blogspot.com)
Lets get on a more personal level now. This is still involving my cancer condition, but its on a more positive, ROMANTIC note. About a month before I found out I had cancer, I was in a relationship with this guy. BOOOOOO!!! (could have done without him Considering he was a cheater at that.)»»ANY WAYS««after being with someone for two years (good or bad) you miss that feeling of having them there. How do I describe it? You just really want that support system, the feeling of being NEEDED by your partner. Just knowing that they are there, even if it’s just to argue. HA! Well, i didn’t want what was offered to me. I needed more then that. So we broke up on bad terms because of all the lying, cheating a denying. Not too long after the ugly break up, I found out about the cancer. OH JOY!!! MORE DRAMA TO ADD TO MY LIFE. That was the one time I actually “wanted” him around, because as much as people were there for me, supporting me, I still felt alone. It was kind of depressing at first, But everyone knows how much of a BEAST I am, so I sucked it up and went on with life. ABOUT A MONTH LATER….An old friend of mine came into my life and gave me some unexpected feelings, that were long overdue. I believe I was LOOKING for something that WASN’T there in my last relationship. But with this “old friend” of mine, I was looking for NOTHING and came upon EVERYTHING. Now- I’m not the corny type by far, and I can read a phony nigga on his best day, but this old friend of mine was REAL. And “REAL” recognise “REAL” off top. To be in a situation like mines in life, It comes with a lot of “worries” and “what ifs”. But Everyday that I spent with this “old friend” of mine had erased any concerns I may have had. With me being OBSESSED with my hair and no longer having any, He made me still feel beautiful and dominant. Any other day, I’m dodging the idea of walking outside with a scarf on my head. But while chilling with him, i would forget all about it. He not only lets me know that he wants to be there for me, but he SHOWS me as well. and a man of action is a powerful thing. POW!!!!! I can have a million people be there for me, supporting me, but I don’t believe that they can amount to the feeling that this old friend of mine shares with me. (Sorry y’all, I still love you and appreciate each and everyone of you *SMILE*) To my OLD FRIEND: “thank you” for being so supportive of me and having my back the way you do. (you know who you are) I’M OUT LIKE A BURNT LIGHT BULB-YEEEEE!!!!
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(Orienally posted on October 25th from blogspot.com)
OK, so Ive always wanted a blog, and BAM!!! My good friend Rugi agreed that I should have one to share my story and keep you people updated. On What? you may be asking. MY CANCER DUUUUH!!!!
In the beginning of September, I was told I have stage 4 ovarian cancer. It started with a hard, non-painful lump on the side of my neck. I had it for about a month before getting it checked out. I mean, who would EVER think they would wake up with cancer all of a sudden??? at the age of 25 for at that. (NOT ME) SOOOOO, after being given some antibiotics, a week later the lump was still there, I was given an x ray for my neck. Results came back and showed that WHATEVER it was in my neck, there was more where that came from. NotONLYdid I have that one lump, but several more around the area, including my chest. So then I was given ANOTHER x ray from my chest down. Come to find out, There was more activity found on my ovaries. Up until last week, the doctors have been going back and forth to conclude, if in fact, I have ovarian cancer because the lump was found in my NECK, so they were indecisive to where the cancer originally started. The specialty doc at UC Davis didn’t even want to believe it was ovarian, but after multiple blood test and biopsy’s, Results show that it couldn’t be non other thanOVARIAN CANCER!!!!!Let me rewind and explain what stage 4 means. Oh! please believe I had a break down after I heard “STAGE 4” because that’s the highest stage you can be. But all it means is that it has already left the area from which it originally occurred. BLAH!
OH, GET THIS!!!! I was getting chemo once every 3 weeks for 6 cycles, but the chemo wasn’t working on my cancer. So now I’m WAITING on a stronger chemo med. Good thing is my hair will grow back because hair loss isn’t a side effect, BUT DAMN!!! that means my hair fell out for NOTHING! whatever….So that’s where I’m at right now…..just waiting. WHO DOES THAT!!! me, duh. Hope that was an exciting first time blog. Ill have much more to come. NEVER A DULL MOMENT IN THE LIFE OF EBONEY!!!!
